The main one that has concerned me as an adult is Aspertaime which is a sugar substitute that you can find in almost every “sugar free” product. As far as I am concerned, you may as well buy the sugar based product as Aspertaime will increase your appetite as well as a high probability of killing you.

Why do we need to look for totally unnatural chemicals instead of natural ingredients that are found growing on the earth?

Today, I simply wanted to get some crisps (chips) and so we went to the local mini mart and bought some Cheezy Corn Crunch and some Baconette Strips. Later I also picked up some Bread Pan.

When I checked the ingredients it contained a usual range of colourings, flavours etc, but there were a few colourings that I wanted to check. When I did, I was shocked.

Cheezy Corn Crunch – Yellow 5
Yellow 5 and Yellow 6 are made from coal oil. Fucking coal oil, a god damned fuel!

Baconette Strips and Bread Pan – Red 40
Red 40 is also made from coal tar!

God damnit, these items are used for fuel and these chemicals should never be used for food products. Are we purposely trying to kill ourselves?

From now on I am eating healthy with salad (that goes off in 3 days), vegetables (that go off in 7 days) and cheese that is naturally made. Damnit just look at the ingredients that are in the food you eat. Put simply, if you do don’t know what the ingredient means in the food you have in your hand, put it back and buy something else.

I will naturally be ordering more currency in different forms, but for the time being this is the cold hard cash I will be carrying with me, sixteen thousands pesos in all.

As my departure grows nearer (currently just 10 days away), I grow nervous and excited at the prospects facing me.

I am not alone in my hatred and growing sickness towards the uk. I know many people who live in the uk and almost every single one of them is sick and wants out. Good luck to you all. We all need our dreams.

What I have been though and my friends are going through reminds me of a song called “Night Train” by the Bouncing Souls. Here are the lyrics:

Goodbye to me and you.
Goodbye to the life we knew.
One last long embrace.
Let go and walk on through.

I’m leaving everything behind for a peace that I can’t find.
The ghosts that roam this house
like winter air right through our souls.
And it feels like dying.
It just feels like time to go.

Going down south to dream another dream.
Maybe check out Memphis, Tennessee.
Take the night train and an extra pair of jeans.
Can’t think of anything else I really need.
And all my experiences ride with me.

This town is dead to me.
And I can’t stop chasing my dreams.
I love you more than anything,
but what you want I could never be.
I love you more than anything,
but only alone can we both be free.

Goodbye to me and you.
Goodbye to the life we knew.
Wipe the tears from your eyes.
Let go and walk on through.

It also reminds me of another song by the Bouncing Souls called “Better Things”, the two lines that really stick to mind are:

Here is hoping all the days ahead
Won’t be as bitter as the ones behind you

However, I find it interesting that I am faced with different problems than I envisioned. When I tell people about my girlfriend, they will normally say “be careful she may be a man”. Is that a fact? Show me just one story of someone you know where that happened. You dumb bastard you’re thinking of Thailand! Not a single person who has said this has ever been able to give an actual documented example. It was always “i read somewhere…” or “it was a friend of a friend of a friend who I’ve never met…”

Everyone who says this to me is below me in the scale of IQs. I have to say “do you seriously think I haven’t thought of this”. For gods sake, if you know me, I was likely your boss for at least a few years. You should know how cunning I am and how much I think of possibilities. I was responsible for over £1’000’000 per year on average. Do you honestly think I would not think about every eventuality so that my back was covered in every conceivable outcome.

Granted, my girlfriend is called “Ian”. But I wonder why people warn be about her being a man and then fail to provide any evidence at all except some story someone they know once heard.

If you are seriously going to shed doubt on this, how do I know I can trust you? How do I know you do not have an ulterior motive?

Here’s a deal, every time you warn me of this without anything less than heresay, I will punch you in the stomach I think that’s only fair.

If you called my Fender Strat Californian Series guitar a Les Paul, I would beat 7 shades of shit out of you, so do not think I would do any less for what you may say about my girlfriend! ok? ok!